♥ Tweets.Pei Huan writes ♥

I've been pondering on a question very much lately...

Am I doing the right thing?

I do not know the answer.....

If I would known,
I should have just behave like I always do
and not go against my principal

How should I treat you?
How would you want me to treat you?
Why do I feel so bad?

You know what is my answer
Yet you choose to be ignorant about it
giving me reasons of your own...

You told me you want to forget,
I understand, I accept,
Then you told me you do not want to forget,
and, again I choose to accept..

Friends then
We shall be....

I truly take you as a good friend
A person I can always trust
Someone that I know I can forever count on
A friend
I come to appreciate and care for very much...

But it seems I should have care less

I do not know why I still give a damn...
I do not understand why I will be easily irritated, frustrated, upset
I do not know why I feel worried and upset when I see the way you treat yourself

When I see you like this,
I am angry, I am frustrated, I am upset
I FEEL BAD!!
I cant blardy sleep!

Are you happy then?!!

But,
Do you care?

You told me how you feel when you know I am upset.

Do you really?

I should not have give a damn about anything in the first place...
I should have just do as I always did in the first place...

being ignorant...

You make me feel like shit
A lousy friend
A bad person

I chose to care and take you as a friend
I chose to accept the fact that things have change between us
I take you as a good friend but what about you?
I appreciate the things you do for me
I am touched at your sincerity

but sometimes,
the more things you do
the more bad I feel
the more stressed I am

because

I do not know what I can do to show you my appreciation
especially after seeing you being unhappy and frustrated!!!

Things just aren't suppose to be this way in the first place
Cruelty
should have been my first choice

Because of this friendship
I feel more and more hurt as days passed by
I feel more and more bad everytime I see you unhappy

I STILL blardy CARE
because I take you as a sincere friend
I appreciate...

Maybe I am really wrong this time....

Why don't you teach me what to do?

Because right this moment

I am helpless....