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有人告诉我鱼的记忆只有7秒，

7秒之后它就不记得过去的事情，

一切又都变成新的。

所以，在那小小的鱼缸里鱼儿，永远不会感到无聊。

我宁愿是只鱼，

7秒一过就什么都忘记，

曾经遇到的人，

曾经做过的事

都可以烟消云散，可我不是鱼。

无法忘记我爱的人，

无法忘记牵挂的苦无法忘记相思的痛...

我的痛，只有我自己懂，

总是喜欢在如此孤独的夜里，翻起过去，

那些被自己深埋心底的往事，

得到的，拥有的，失去的，

有种恍然如梦的感觉。

一直都很明白，自己是不该沉迷于过去的。

其实，我是害怕深夜的，会有一种无尽的寂寞袭向我；

我却又喜欢深夜，

因为只有周围漆黑一片，

我和我的泪才是安全的。

And so here I am once again....After so so long...Guess I just need a space of my own to write my out my thoughts...

It's November already...Time flies...Especially when you are encountering so much dramas, those never-ending gossips & chaos...

To summarize my life for the past few months.

- I am single now. Yes, I broke up. The End. Don't bother asking anymore questions, cos to be honest, I cant be bothered to answer them.

- I am encountering some relationship problems now. Maybe this explains why I am back here too. I just need a space for my to release my thoughts and spill my heart.

- I can say that, I grew up alot in the past few months. I see & judge ppl around me better. Or you could say I see the true colours of alot 'friends' around me.

- I have come to the conclusion that I miss my old group of friends in Melbourne tremendously lots! Less drama, less misunderstanding & backstabbing. I've come to appreciate them as my true friends.

-I am spending alot of alone time lately. Mostly just reading books, watching dramas, going online, cooking...etc. It makes me cherish certain elements and ppl in my life more and I sincerely do enjoy being alone and doing my own things for once. Yes, I do get lonely sometimes but, you could say I rather feel lonely than facing those complicated issues and two faced people outside. I only hang out with those very very few friends nowadays, but, I AM happy. In a way.

- I realise I always re-blog when I am emo. Or going through this 'phase' in my life. And just wondering, maybe I should privatise my blog.

- I FREAKING gained weight!!! Not just 1-2 kgs mind you!!! *big big sigh~*




Shall update more~

Last Saturday, went to attend two birthday event!! Nothing much to elaborate...Just good friends, cheerful companian, laughter, and of course, alcohol!! =)